Killer with a calculator: Thinking about shame

Why shame so cheap?
Tried to find solutions
Left dem buildings
Left dem binaries
Set some fires
Ripped whole words
Reclaimed body
Rebuilt mind
But still #$*&@ * 

Why shame so heavy?
Tried to run
Tried to fight
Left some folks
Burned them bridges
Hid my tracks
Tested body.
But still #$*&@

Why shame?
Disciplined
Body
Mind
Spirit
But still #$*&@

Aberrant
Anachronistic residue** 
Made savage by modernity
Killer with a calculator
MacBeth
Sings same
Dream same.
still #$*&@

Always #$*&@?
But now
I know!

NanaBjorn Wandering 24

* Jay Z “Story of OJ”

** Rifkin - "Beyond Settler Time"