Worries

Worries
“only the good die young”
Got me worried
Fine line
How much wicked
Keep me here?
Refining equations
Don’t want no spurious correlations

Pehiw 2022

The Truth that is you

“But a truth that don’t change is a truth to befriend” Boy and Bear

How to let go?
Old truths
Need burying
How we gonna do it?
Seems like everything concrete

We forget
Where to gather
When to put down medicines
How to give
Receive
The interplay of respect
Relation
Trusts rooted in soil
Ceremony in a casserole dish
As we set out extra plate
Care for a neighbor
Share a burden
Hold a truth

That don’t change
Let it entrance you
Let it wind through your blood
Let it patch your wounds
Till new flesh grows,
You know
Stronger even as the aches
Befriending that truth
That held you firm
In the darkest time
That truth that is you

Pehiw – Wandering 2022

The sea is not always blue where the strong women live

Battle and birth

The sea is not always blue where the strong women live

Sometimes red blood

Battle and birth

Entwined in ceremony

All emptied out

Sometimes black

Ours/theirs

Chest heavy hurts

Grow veins

To new organs

Kitchen Wisdom

Sometimes purple

Kitchen wisdom

Hope nurtured

Sinuous emergence

Roots to possibilities

“strength” is a multi-faceted gem

Of tears

Of giving up

Of bone deep tired

Of grandmothers, mothers and aunties

Of care

Of renewal

Of struggle

Of surviving one more night

Sinking deep into being enough.

--Nanabjorn (Preparing 2022)

A staggering art of courage

Need to reattach flesh
Armature realigned
Dents buffed
Lost bits
Proxied
Model muscles
Build up
Carrying
Primordial shame
Broken down
Carrying difference
Need nerves
Carry signals
Between units
Stranger til now
Need blood
Nourishment
For starving lands
Need flesh
To cover
To protect
Need label
To make beast
‘discoverable’
New thing
Old thing
Build of steal
Forged by craftsmen
Of cruelty
So skilled a predator
Made safe for dinner réparté
RESIST
Not their story!
It is ours
Each reweaving of a worn place
Each reinforcement of a wobbly corner
Each stich to bring once close things back tight
Each refresh – new paint to chip
Each label erased
A staggering art of courage 

Nanabjorn P 22

We ain’t no army of the damned

Pack your bags
Gather your medicines
Ready your gifts
Your stories
Your strength
They will be needed
To our thinkers
To our children
To those who keep us fed
To old ones
Both here
And those arriving later
To leaders
Who speak in silences
Who show us how to live
Those who take up care

We ain’t no army of the damned
We are something new
Imagined
When
They tried to silence “drums”
Be ready
Listen careful
Why the Clan Grandmothers
Will retake the hill
You are warriors of hope
Of numbers
Letters
Strategy
Once slaves
Soon Captains of the hunt

Pehiw 2022
To D

What if I trade in each lie to buy back truths?

What if I trade in each lie to buy back truths?
Each lie
Covered a wound
Poker hot
Turn your stomach rot.
Now seen
Healing begins
Bring brother maggot to clear out dead
To make room for each new story
Truth burn to heal

Pehiw W 2022

Hadda

Angry

I was never allowed

No matter

The pain/shame

No matter

The touch

The breaking

Hadda

Smile

Hadda

Be polite

Never my own

You wonder

Sometimes

I forget I person

 

Pehiw Wandering 2022