Dark horse

The past couple of weeks have been hard.  I am really grieving for Runa and her anxiety.  I am very relieved we will be able to see some professionals soon for help.  This weekend she had a panic attack about going to the park.  She was worried that people would see her.  We talked a bit about dark horse.  I have been laying down tobacco for dark horse each morning.  Things with Runa have set off my own depression and I need to keep going without falling into unhealthy patterns.  They are so comfortable and seductive.  I feel like dark horse understands.