Things are still not back to normal. Maybe with the start of school? I have been doing lots of reading, but not finishing anything. I have a bunch of projects underway, but nothing to show yet. I did finish painting my shoes. I had been wanting to do a pair for a long time and I was quite happy how my ravens turned out.
I am trying to figure out a not quite teen. Trying to help my other child a non reader to be set up for a good school year. There is so much I want to do and the time seems limited. Until I stop and think about how much media I consume and maybe it is not a question of time but one of focus and priority.
I am trying to live in my circle and make that real. To forgive myself when I don't and let go of all my anger at myself for past failures. I went gathering a brought home cedar and dandelions. It felt good to look at my neighborhood through another lens and see the abundance around me. I held a baby and was amazed by how strong and smart such a little person is. I have thought about turtles and how they survive on land and water. The advantages and disadvantages of the shell. I thought about my cat who does not know she is cat and does dog stuff cause she sees that around her. Am I doing dog stuff sometimes? Do I need to do more? I have been trying to watch Kookum moon and slow down a little to be aware of her in my life. Maybe randomness is not so bad sometimes.