I am not a patient person. I like things to be fast. I like them to be easy. With my learning disabilities things get backwards and upside down and wrong very easily. That is why I am not quite sure why I am still beading. It is not easy or fast or for the impatient.
I started last spring from a book wanting to reclaim this little part of being metis. Each bead is a little challenge to me. I can do things the faster way, the way that might not work or the slower more methodical way. Each bead I must make this choice again and those thousands of choices add up to the finished piece.
I like feeling the echo of all my kookums. Wishing they were there to teach me. I keep going as it all feels like a puzzle that I can just figure out if I keep at it. I enjoy working with the colours and the leather or cloth. I like to think of all those women who made things 150 years ago that I now Pin onto my boards. I like how their work continues to live and inspire.
I like that I can make beautiful things for my family. I like to feel each of those little balls roll in between my fingers - they are a whole world and a moment in one. I like that this activity challenges me. I like that I create something real when my job is all theoretical.
What challenges and delights you?